For the past few days I’ve been trying
to look at things from a different perspective.
But, something just won’t stop haunting me.
All the what ifs and what might have been.

I try to walk blindly through this life,
trying not to notice things around me that reminds me of you.
But the more that I close my eyes,
the more that images of you become clearer.

The more that I try to blur my mind from thoughts of you,
I think of you –
all the more.

It’s as if my brain’s wearing love magnifying glasses
collecting-recollecting every bits and pieces of your memory,
making me take a closer look –
at Love, and You.

How can I forget about you?
How can I ignore this feeling?
How can I, if all the things around me,
and if every song I hear reminds me of you.

How can i?

Title: How Can I
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Forbidden Love Poetry

After all that we’ve been through,
after all has been said that’s true
We remain Just Friends –
‘coz things are the way they are

But…

No one seems to believe that, why?
Can they see the tears falling down from our eyes?
Can they see the pain that’s cutting us up inside?
Can they feel how hurt our hearts with love denied?
Can they see how much I’m dying?
Can they feel the rush of pain running through my veins?

Is it time for the real goodbye?

Will this love that binds us finally die?

Is it the end of the world for me?

…just to let you know, just in case you don’t
you are my world now – my everything.

Why are we crying?
ahh so Emo.

Anyway, we’re just friends,
and that’s how we’d always remain-
Come what may…

Just Friends – Because things are the way they are.

I just hope that people would believe it when we say, “we’re just friends”
because it hurts more when they don’t, and we both know we can never be more than that.

Title: Just Friends – Because things are the way they are
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Forbidden Love Poetry

I smile, I hide, and cry so hard inside
I look up, trying to find the light
I ask, I scream, I drift into a dream
a dream of us together–
a dream of us one day

I thirst, I crave, I beg
for time not to go away
the only time we have left
in each other’s arms to stay

I am chained — unchained
but never will be free

Our names are called by love
and we answer every time
But all that we could say,
only time will tell, only time.

I know this picture is such a blur
even eyes wide open could not clearly see
with hearts locked up inside
even ears not shut will fail to hear
the whispers of our undying love tonight

life painted us together in a beautiful masterpiece
a portrait this world has torn apart
fate and its hand recollecting every single piece
to mend our broken hearts

I say,
I’m yours forever — no escape will I ever have
No running away– no letting go,
not from you or this love.

turpentine all over us now — we endlessly drown
melting every detail into a blur
we are nothing but the stained canvas
but still a piece of art we have become –

for we are not of this world and time–
a piece of art even the masters had never known
yet a masterpiece of the wounded hearts
that has turned into something
even more beautiful than love and beauty itself

Title: wounded hearts’ masterpiece
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Alexis meets Aidan

I love you, Goodbye – Love and Letting Go Poem

Tears rushing down your cheeks asking why do I have to go
I said it’s something that if you can’t, then I must do.
People in pain, are cursing me bone marrow-deep
Wishing me chaotic thoughts and nightmares in my sleep

We would be endlessly thrown with hurtful words
piercing through us like daggers and swords
Someone might even be hoping, that I cease to exist
wanting to teach me a lesson, and put me to an ultimate test

But is loving you something that i should regret?
When even my heart completely refuse to fret
Its the best thing that ever happened to my whole damn life
and if they continue to Judge me, hate me, I don’t really mind.

I know, that is such a stubborn thing to say
That’s why while I can and while I may
I’ll be dragging my feet and try to walk away

Walk away—
not from you and not from our love
but from causing hurt to the people around us

We have no other choice but to wait for our own perfect time
Whether it comes or not, whether or not you become mine
It’s only distance that would keep us apart
I would continue to hold you closest to my heart

But for now I have to face the truth and try to get by
and I’ll have to take my first step by saying–
I love you, Goodbye

always remember that it all started with goodbye, only fate knows what tomorrow will bring.

Title: I love you, Goodbye

© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Alexis meets Aidan

I don’t know why I’ve grown so weak and weary.
I’ve grown much weaker than I ever was in my entire life
weaker than I thought possible

Don’t mind me, Don’t worry too much. I guess I’ll get used to it,
I know I’ll get through this somehow
I can make it through..

trust me…

I’m not wasting all the things that I have learned from you,
coz if it’s just like that, I don’t know where I’ll be right now
Perhaps out there wasting my life somewhere,
or worse, I’d be gone forever

but look at me…
I’m stranded as hell in the deep abyss
and I’m facing it and not running away from it…

this is probably my way of coping, i dunno….
…but I’m trying to cope… trying too hard even,
…but still misery gets the better of me at times
…but at least not all the time.

I know you want no buts and excuses.
You want hits, not near hits or hit misses
but I’m telling you… I’m telling you this now so please listen

I’m putting my best foot forward on this matter
and this is already the best I could give.
I’m sorry if it’s lousy, I am lousy and I am not afraid to admit it

I am not strong but I’m trying to be.
It’s just that I could get really weak and stupid at times

but believe me…

I’m trying to busy myself with things, everyone can tell,
I’m sorry if it’s too obvious that I’m not doing it well
I just couldn’t stop thinking about you…
I just couldn’t help but miss you too much.
Sometimes it gets too much more than my whole being could bear.

Misery Loves Me.

Misery keeps on trying to embrace me and I’m struggling to stay away from it.
I’m trying to defy it by faking a smile, but it just doesn’t seem to work.
So please… Just hold me close and I’ll be just fine.

Title: Misery Loves Me
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Alexis meets Aidan

Do you wanna know why?

Everybody says hello, anytime of the day
It’s been a normal thing that everyone would say
But it was when you said goodbye
that my heart started to feel this way

It all started when you said back then
that you think you have to talk to me less often
because you felt that you might fall in love with me
I even laughed at the thought, and never took it seriously
but later realized it wasn’t something funny

because..
it all started when you first said goodbye.

I missed you like I never
missed anyone before
I longed to be with you once more
as if waves rushing back and forth
to kiss the shore

You got me at our first major goodbye
when you said you have to stay away
because you felt that it was wrong
that you were falling deeper in love with me
each passing day

It all started with goodbye
because since then we became inseparable
and the more that we try to walk away
the more that our love prevails and endures

how many times did we say goodbye,
trying to make everything right?
How many times did we try to stop
this forbidden love?
…and how many times did we fail,
to walk away and let go?

Is this the last goodbye,
or just a brand new start?
Will you walk away from love,
and leave us both with a broken heart?

I’ll let you walk away,
I’ll let you say your goodbyes,
for it will only be another beginning
of a promised love without ending.

It all started with goodbye Anyway..
if it’s not right today,
perhaps it wont be wrong tomorrow.
Besides, forever does not end tonight
or this lifetime.

“i’m letting you walk away, but deep in my heart I’m holding on and never letting go”

Title: it all started with goodbye
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Forbidden Love Poetry

I miss your laughter, I miss your giggles–
caress, snuggles, hugs, kisses and cuddles
even the moments when you don’t say anything at all

I close my eyes and I smile deep inside
and then I whisper into the open air;
I love you, I love you with all of me..
my heart glows with love and gladness
and the pain and sorrow brought about by longing
slowly fades away

I can still feel your warmth,
the warmth of your beautiful smile
I can still hear you whisper softly in my ear
I could still feel you so close to me…
even when you’re no longer there

And even when my eyes are shut
I could still see your beautiful face
I can’t help but think I might be going crazy now
Damn woman, you really got me…

I miss everything that you are
and everything that I am with you.

I love you, and I really miss you so.

Title: I miss you so
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Forbidden Love Poetry

The rain pours suddenly without warning, and it pours so hard that sometimes it even takes too long before it’s gone. Sadly, there are times that its fury causes death.

I wonder if the angels in heaven are mourning over a loss or are they tears of happiness? I have no clue. All I know is that, when there is rain, the world turns green, and soon there will be more colors like that of the rainbow. After every rain pour, plants rejoice and flowers starts to bloom.

The rain, sometimes it may pour so hard but it’s never a curse. It’s always a blessing.

The rain brings me joy like how love does, it lightens my heart’s heavy load. When it pours, and my eyes with it, no one knows I’m crying. The rain gives freedom to my broken spirit.

So, dance with me in the rain, cry with me in the rain. Live, love and be free!

Title: The Rain – Tears are words unspoken
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Forbidden Love Poetry

Whenever I keep quiet, I just really need to
don’t get me talking because I couldn’t lie to you
but since you want to know then okay I will tell
my heart is broken and I am not feeling so well

You asked me if I’m having a hard time breathing
I said, It’s nothing, I’m perfectly fine
But deep inside I’m being ripped and torn
my heart is bleeding, screaming in silence
spirit slowly dying and I couldn’t help it

I know I’ve been acting strange lately
more than it’s hurting you, it’s ten times hurting me
I’m not trying to stay away from you, if you only know
every single second without you is an endless torture
– that’s the truth

I told myself I have to spend time with you less often
coz the more we bond, the more that I couldn’t live without you
I’m just trying to do as you said I should,
to be able to exist without depending my happiness on you.

For the past six months you became my whole life
The only one I think about each second that passes by
The moment I wake up it’s your face that I first see
and the last before I close my eyes at the end of the day

and now… I’m crying like a little kid
missing you too much like missing you forever
to think that it’s only been a day that we’re not together

How much more when you leave me behind?
How else will I be able to survive?
How can I last without talking to you?
When it’s your voice that I hear even when you’re not there…

I know you’d hate to hear those words from me
but that’s exactly how I feel right now

I love you, I really do...but our love is a love that is forbidden.

Title: sighs turned into words
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Forbidden Love Poetry

You make me wanna do the things I used to dislike,
love the things I used to hate
and pay attention to people and things
that I never gave a damn about.

You make me smile for no reason,
love and laugh like crazy
without the fear of looking or feeling stupid.

You’ve given me not only love –
You’ve given me freedom.

Title: what you’ve given me - love and freedom
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Forbidden Love Poetry