love bug

Despite all the bad things that happened and no matter how worst things has turned out to be in my life, you remained the only constant source of happiness for me. As if I was bitten by a happy bug, and the sting remains forever. Everytime you cross my mind, I always smile even if tears can’t help but fall. I will always have a reason to be thankful and for feeling so blessed. How I wish I could hold you in my arms forever, but I could only cherish every yesterday and today that you’re here with me. I know I don’t really get to tell you as often, but I am happy with you – really. There are times that we fight over petty things, but maybe it’s just because of the circumstances. But over all, I am happy that you’re mine and I’m yours. I loved you then, I love you even more now, and I will continue to love for as long as I’m breathing. I don’t care if I get bitten by your love and happiness bug over and over again…

Love and Happiness awaits at the end of the rainbow
Could it be true???

Do you think it’s true that we could find
the treasure of love like a pot of gold?
…that at the end of the rainbow tears run dry
and happiness will be mine and yours?

You said you’ll wait for me, I said I will do the same…
No matter how long it takes, no matter what fate may bring
But what if I won’t be able to make it back home?
If I’d end up at the end of the rainbow, will you come?

Title: Love and Happiness awaits at the end of the rainbow
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Love and Poetry Beyond Words

I am patient, I can wait
I can stand by you
whatever it takes…

but please…
don’t let me live in vain hope
Don’t measure my enduring love
and uncomplaining patience…

I am here, I am here
Just so you know
Just if you forget
I am here, I am here

I am never used to standing
and waiting for luck to pass me by

I am an active subject
I am the flying wind
I am the careless animal
living in the barren earth

but i can be patient
and I can wait
I can stand by you
whatever it takes…

because i care, I do…
and I’m waiting

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This poem is for those who are waiting for the one they love.

Title: Just Friends – Love Waits
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Love and Poetry Beyond Words

One night I woke up and found myself lying beside you
I could not help but stare at your beautiful face
I gathered my pencils, and started to trace
to capture your beauty in my sketch

…but it seems that my pencils failed
and my purpose defeated
for no matter how perfect my masterpiece is–
It’s still nothing compared to you…

I got my pen, and wrote down every possible words
that would best describe how beautiful you are
and how much love I feel for you

My pens bleed with words
and my brains with it….
But they died in the end – still a failure

My pencils and bleeding pens could never capture
and would never be able to describe
Your beauty and Love.

Nothing could.

Title: Pencils and Bleeding Pens
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Alexis meets Aidan

I’ve never met anyone like you, I’ve never loved anyone as much as I love you. If only I knew you’d come, I would’ve waited for you. No one has ever loved me the way that you do. How I wish there’s a way to make things work between us. I want us to be more than just this….

I love you even if it’s not right. Even if ours is a love– forbidden. You mean everything to me but we can’t be. If only I had a choice, I would choose to be with you more than anyone else, but I have to do what I must. I have already promised myself to someone. If only I could follow my heart and do what I really want… I would choose to spend the rest of my life and forever with you, but I am left without a choice.

(….and I love you whether it’s wrong or right, and though I can’t be with you tonight, my heart is always by your side - If you’re not the one, daniel beddingfield)

I may be with him/her but you know that you have my heart, and my life would never be complete without you. I would only be truly happy when the time comes that we can be together.

True – Ryan Cabrera Music Code

On The Other Side

A: I’m sorry for everything that I’ve done wrong, I never meant to hurt you – it just happened.

B : We can still work it out and stay together. I just want you to know that I love you in spite and despite of all the mistakes you’ve committed… I love you, I don’t want to lose you. I will never leave you and I will never let you go – ever.

A: I love you too… ugh (but I don’t think I can love you as much as I used to or make things stay the way they used to be, but I will try… So much has changed between us. I love you but I love her/him more…)

Now, let me ask you something.
What hurts more?

A love so right at the wrong time,
or loving and being with someone –
who loves someone else more than he/she loves you?

Title: Torn in Between – What hurts more?
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Forbidden Love

(Sigh) Talking about having a hard time breathing, this is one of those times. Anyway, I have Mac around to play with while everyone is out. But, I can’t really have him around that much because of my asthma. Although Mac is always trying to find a way to get near me, then he starts doing that “meow, meow” and looks at me in the eye as if saying pick me up. I can’t help but pet him and stroke his head when he starts kneading my leg and rub his cheek against it. I hate having asthma.. (sigh)

I’m feeling a bit woozy now. I haven’t really slept much in the past few weeks. I guess it’s also one of the reasons why my resistance is getting really low and I get sick so easily. I guess I’ll just hit my bed first, close my eyes and try to get some sleep.

No poems for now, I will try to post a new one perhaps in a couple of days. I hope you guys won’t get tired of reading my posts. Thanks!

And to the one I love… The following lines in the Song “If you’re not the one” by daniel beddingfield goes out to you…

I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

© 2007-2008 Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Forbidden Love

When you’re living in a season
and that season is done
When the spring has past
and summer won’t last
From green to red -
and yellow seeming-like-gold
the leaves start to fall
then everything grows dreary and dull…

When you’re living for a reason
and that reason is gone
tears start falling while your heart’s breaking
but there’s nothing you can do
to stop things from withering

And then everything goes wrong
You feel so cold and all alone
The snow starts to fall – melting in your eyes
You sigh and ask God, Why?

Then God sings the Ecclessian song
Life has its seasons,
and everything happens for a reason

There’s a time to laugh
and a time to cry
a time to say hello
and a time to say goodbye

There’s a time to love and not to love
A time to hold on, and a time to let go

So, when you’re facing uncertainty
and you do not understand
why things aren’t the way they used to be
Don’t be weary – just think of it this way
there’s a season and reason for everything

It’s not hot but you’re sweating
it’s not cold but you’re shaking
Then you sigh, and ask God why—-

Well, that could be something else my friend.

© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Forbidden Love Poetry

For the past few days I’ve been trying
to look at things from a different perspective.
But, something just won’t stop haunting me.
All the what ifs and what might have been.

I try to walk blindly through this life,
trying not to notice things around me that reminds me of you.
But the more that I close my eyes,
the more that images of you become clearer.

The more that I try to blur my mind from thoughts of you,
I think of you –
all the more.

It’s as if my brain’s wearing love magnifying glasses
collecting-recollecting every bits and pieces of your memory,
making me take a closer look –
at Love, and You.

How can I forget about you?
How can I ignore this feeling?
How can I, if all the things around me,
and if every song I hear reminds me of you.

How can i?

Title: How Can I
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Forbidden Love Poetry

After all that we’ve been through,
after all has been said that’s true
We remain Just Friends –
‘coz things are the way they are

But…

No one seems to believe that, why?
Can they see the tears falling down from our eyes?
Can they see the pain that’s cutting us up inside?
Can they feel how hurt our hearts with love denied?
Can they see how much I’m dying?
Can they feel the rush of pain running through my veins?

Is it time for the real goodbye?

Will this love that binds us finally die?

Is it the end of the world for me?

…just to let you know, just in case you don’t
you are my world now – my everything.

Why are we crying?
ahh so Emo.

Anyway, we’re just friends,
and that’s how we’d always remain-
Come what may…

Just Friends – Because things are the way they are.

I just hope that people would believe it when we say, “we’re just friends”
because it hurts more when they don’t, and we both know we can never be more than that.

Title: Just Friends – Because things are the way they are
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Forbidden Love Poetry

I smile, I hide, and cry so hard inside
I look up, trying to find the light
I ask, I scream, I drift into a dream
a dream of us together–
a dream of us one day

I thirst, I crave, I beg
for time not to go away
the only time we have left
in each other’s arms to stay

I am chained — unchained
but never will be free

Our names are called by love
and we answer every time
But all that we could say,
only time will tell, only time.

I know this picture is such a blur
even eyes wide open could not clearly see
with hearts locked up inside
even ears not shut will fail to hear
the whispers of our undying love tonight

life painted us together in a beautiful masterpiece
a portrait this world has torn apart
fate and its hand recollecting every single piece
to mend our broken hearts

I say,
I’m yours forever — no escape will I ever have
No running away– no letting go,
not from you or this love.

turpentine all over us now — we endlessly drown
melting every detail into a blur
we are nothing but the stained canvas
but still a piece of art we have become –

for we are not of this world and time–
a piece of art even the masters had never known
yet a masterpiece of the wounded hearts
that has turned into something
even more beautiful than love and beauty itself

Title: wounded hearts’ masterpiece
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Alexis meets Aidan