Despite all the bad things that happened and no matter how worst things has turned out to be in my life, you remained the only constant source of happiness for me. As if I was bitten by a happy bug, and the sting remains forever. Everytime you cross my mind, I always smile even if tears can’t help but fall. I will always have a reason to be thankful and for feeling so blessed. How I wish I could hold you in my arms forever, but I could only cherish every yesterday and today that you’re here with me. I know I don’t really get to tell you as often, but I am happy with you – really. There are times that we fight over petty things, but maybe it’s just because of the circumstances. But over all, I am happy that you’re mine and I’m yours. I loved you then, I love you even more now, and I will continue to love for as long as I’m breathing. I don’t care if I get bitten by your love and happiness bug over and over again…
Every time the rain pours so heavy in this life
the aftermath of every darkness is a cloud with a silver light
and then the sun glows and dark clouds slowly disappear
the haze becomes clear as the rainbow appears…
Love and Happiness awaits at the end of the rainbow
Could it be true??? Continue Reading »
One night I woke up and found myself lying beside you
I could not help but stare at your beautiful face
I gathered my pencils, and started to trace
to capture your beauty in my sketch
…but it seems that my pencils failed
and my purpose defeated Continue Reading »
I’ve never met anyone like you, I’ve never loved anyone as much as I love you. If only I knew you’d come, I would’ve waited for you. No one has ever loved me the way that you do. How I wish there’s a way to make things work between us. I want us to be more than just this….
I love you even if it’s not right. Even if ours is a love– forbidden. You mean everything to me but we can’t be. If only I had a choice, I would choose to be with you more than anyone else, but I have to do what I must. I have already promised myself to someone. If only I could follow my heart and do what I really want… I would choose to spend the rest of my life and forever with you, but I am left without a choice.
(….and I love you whether it’s wrong or right, and though I can’t be with you tonight, my heart is always by your side- If you’re not the one, daniel beddingfield)
I may be with him/her but you know that you have my heart, and my life would never be complete without you. I would only be truly happy when the time comes that we can be together.
A: I’m sorry for everything that I’ve done wrong, I never meant to hurt you – it just happened.
B : We can still work it out and stay together. I just want you to know that I love you in spite and despite of all the mistakes you’ve committed… I love you, I don’t want to lose you. I will never leave you and I will never let you go – ever.
A: I love you too… ugh (but I don’t think I can love you as much as I used to or make things stay the way they used to be, but I will try… So much has changed between us. I love you but I love her/him more…)
Now, let me ask you something. What hurts more?
A love so right at the wrong time, or loving and being with someone –
who loves someone else more than he/she loves you?
I’m grounded right now. I can’t go anywhere and the doctor said that I need complete bed rest. I guess there’s really no need to be told I’m grounded, because I am most of the time. Three days ago, I just had a short time out with Kuya(big bro) Karl and it rained really hard. It was weird coz the weather was steaming hot when we went out. He just wanted to test ride my new bike. When we were on our way home, the rain suddenly poured really hard that we were dripping when we got home. My mom got really upset, but it was fun. I had fever since that night and until now, and frequent asthma attacks again. My mom is even thinking of taking me to the hospital again, an idea that I completely detest. I hate staying at the hospital.
(Sigh) Talking about having a hard time breathing, this is one of those times. Anyway, I have Mac around to play with while everyone is out. But, I can’t really have him around that much because of my asthma. Although Mac is always trying to find a way to get near me, then he starts doing that “meow, meow” and looks at me in the eye as if saying pick me up. I can’t help but pet him and stroke his head when he starts kneading my leg and rub his cheek against it. I hate having asthma.. (sigh)
I’m feeling a bit woozy now. I haven’t really slept much in the past few weeks. I guess it’s also one of the reasons why my resistance is getting really low and I get sick so easily. I guess I’ll just hit my bed first, close my eyes and try to get some sleep.
No poems for now, I will try to post a new one perhaps in a couple of days. I hope you guys won’t get tired of reading my posts. Thanks!
And to the one I love… The following lines in the Song “If you’re not the one” by daniel beddingfield goes out to you…
I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side
I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
When you’re living in a season
and that season is done
When the spring has past
and summer won’t last
From green to red -
and yellow seeming-like-gold
the leaves start to fall
then everything grows dreary and dull… Continue Reading »
For the past few days I’ve been trying
to look at things from a different perspective.
But, something just won’t stop haunting me.
All the what ifs and what might have been. Continue Reading »
I smile, I hide, and cry so hard inside
I look up, trying to find the light
I ask, I scream, I drift into a dream
a dream of us together–
a dream of us one day Continue Reading »
