I don’t exactly know what to feel right now. I don’t know if I should be happy or sad. The thing is, I’m talking to the only person who matters to me more than anything and anyone in this world, and that fact and feeling alone is giving me this natural high. But, I don’t know if it’s right to feel that at this very moment. She sounds so perturbed and all that. I could only sense a hint of depression in her voice. I don’t know where this conversation would lead us to. She’s telling me about this odd feeling which is obviously a bad feeling, and I hate it coz I don’t know what to say to make her feel better. I’ve already caused her too much and I’m scared that whatever is it that I’m gonna say to her right now would just add up to those bad feelings and make her feel even worse. *Sigh
I want to tell her that everything will be just fine, I’ve tried, but it’s as if my words just faded into darkness that even I could not hear them myself. Perhaps it’s because I don’t even really know how things will be, but I’m still hoping for the best. Love love love… (Sigh) So bitter at times and yet so very sweet.