love bug

Despite all the bad things that happened and no matter how worst things has turned out to be in my life, you remained the only constant source of happiness for me. As if I was bitten by a happy bug, and the sting remains forever. Everytime you cross my mind, I always smile even if tears can’t help but fall. I will always have a reason to be thankful and for feeling so blessed. How I wish I could hold you in my arms forever, but I could only cherish every yesterday and today that you’re here with me. I know I don’t really get to tell you as often, but I am happy with you – really. There are times that we fight over petty things, but maybe it’s just because of the circumstances. But over all, I am happy that you’re mine and I’m yours. I loved you then, I love you even more now, and I will continue to love for as long as I’m breathing. I don’t care if I get bitten by your love and happiness bug over and over again…

I find it hard to sleep lately, and so I try to read some of the books I brought with me. But, after having my breakfast I passed by my aunt’s small library. As I was going through some of the books, I found this book entitled “The Compleat Courtship” by Nancy Van Pelt. It’s written exclusively for people in Love. It basically discusses varoius topics about being in a relationship and answers questions like:

Why Date? What do fellows like in girls? what do girls like in fellows? To kiss or not to kiss. The makings of a good date. How to survive a breakup. How to tell if you are really in love. Love Versus Infatuation. Petting. How far is too far? Guidelines for expressing affection. Premarital sex. Intimacy without sex. Living-in. God’s plan for sex. How to know if my partner is ready for marriage? The most important factor when choosing a mate. The best age to marry. Religion and mate choice. Marrying a divorced person. Interracial marriages. The purpose and length of engagement. How intimate should engagement be? It’s time to see the doctor. The Past – How much should I tell? How to break an engagement. A note to the broken hearted….

There are also interesting topics like, “Everything you always wanted to know about honeymoons but were afraid to ask” and the In-Law Crisis.

Don’t you know that a successful marriage begins with a successful courtship? This book “The Compleat Courtship” will help you discover the exciting adventures of dating and courtship. If you’re in a dilemma right now, it might just be what you need. This is no paid promotional material, in fact I don’t even have any idea who Nancy Van Pelt is, but she writes very well. It’s really an interesting book, and I recommend it to everyone.

Update:

I just gathered a few additional info about this great author. Nancy Van Pelt has other interesting books aside from The compleat Courtship and Compleat Marriage. You can check them out in Amazon. Here is a short list:

Smart Love: A Field Guide for Single Adults by Nancy L. Van Pelt (Paperback – May 1997)

How to Talk So Your Mate Will Listen and Listen So Your Mate Will Talk by Nancy L. Van Pelt (Paperback – Nov 1989)

The compleat tween by Nancy L Van Pelt (Paperback – 1985)

Como Hablar Para Que Su Pareja Escuche Y Como Escuchar Para Que Su Pareja Hable/ How to Talk So Your Mate Will Listen and Listen So Your Mate Will Talk by Nancy L. Van Pelt (Paperback – Jun 30, 2005)

We’Ve Only Just Begun: A Guide to Successful Courtship by Nancy L. Van Pelt (Hardcover – Jul 1989)

To have and to hold: A guide to successful marriage by Nancy L Van Pelt (Unknown Binding – 1980)

Train up a child: A guide to successful parenting by Nancy L Van Pelt (Unknown Binding – 1984)

From This Day Forward: Blueprint for Family Happiness by Nancy L. Van Pelt (Paperback – Aug 1985)

The compleat marriage by Nancy L Van Pelt (Unknown Binding – 1979)

How to communicate with your mate (Bettes living series) by Nancy L Van Pelt (Unknown Binding – 1979)

Highly Effective Marriage by Nancy L. Van Pelt (Paperback – Mar 2000)

Get Organized!: Seven Secrets to Sanity for Stressed Women by Nancy L. Van Pelt (Paperback – Mar 1998)

I am patient, I can wait
I can stand by you
whatever it takes…

but please…
don’t let me live in vain hope
Don’t measure my enduring love
and uncomplaining patience…

I am here, I am here
Just so you know
Just if you forget
I am here, I am here

I am never used to standing
and waiting for luck to pass me by

I am an active subject
I am the flying wind
I am the careless animal
living in the barren earth

but i can be patient
and I can wait
I can stand by you
whatever it takes…

because i care, I do…
and I’m waiting

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This poem is for those who are waiting for the one they love.

Title: Just Friends – Love Waits
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Love and Poetry Beyond Words

true love is like taking a walk in the elliptical

a journey in place – never ending

you can walk your fastest and even try to run..
but you can never run or walk away.

you stop, look around and you’re still there.
the same old place, same old faces
just a little exhausted – but refreshed

you rest for awhile…

and then you take that journey again
same journey over and over again,
still in the same place

still the same feeling, only stronger.

Title: True Love
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Alexis meets Aidan

One night I woke up and found myself lying beside you
I could not help but stare at your beautiful face
I gathered my pencils, and started to trace
to capture your beauty in my sketch

…but it seems that my pencils failed
and my purpose defeated
for no matter how perfect my masterpiece is–
It’s still nothing compared to you…

I got my pen, and wrote down every possible words
that would best describe how beautiful you are
and how much love I feel for you

My pens bleed with words
and my brains with it….
But they died in the end – still a failure

My pencils and bleeding pens could never capture
and would never be able to describe
Your beauty and Love.

Nothing could.

Title: Pencils and Bleeding Pens
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Alexis meets Aidan

It’s normal for people to judge people, most especially if  they are engaged in what they call “FORBIDDEN LOVE“. But I guess, there’s no such thing as right or wrong when it comes to love. Wrong time perhaps, or wrong circumstance, for LOVE and loving itself could never be wrong.

On Forbidden Love

One of the hardest things to battle with in love, is loving someone who isn’t yours, or can’t be yours. But, the more difficult the struggle becomes, when that person loves you back just the same. – bittersweet collide

And I love the beautiful quote by the famous RM Rilke: “For one human being to love another: that is perhaps the most difficult of our tasks; the ultimate, the last test and proof, the work for which all other work is but preparation.”

Lastly, I just wanna share this song entitled, “ALL OVER ME”

I really love this song.

Your kisses I could not seem to forget
I’ve never tasted anything as sweet as your lips
Embrace so warm I could not pull away
Without you I feel cold all night and day

My teardrops couldn’t help but dry up
before your beautiful smile
Your love is like a phoenix, burning like fire
the way you make my heart burn
with so much desire

Your love is life breathed into my soul
When your heart is entwined with mine
I know, I am whole.

But when you’re away -
I feel nothing but emptiness
No matter how hard I try,
everything just seems to be meaningless

So, hold me close and never let go
Because life would not mean anything
without you.

Title: Love Phoenix – Hail to the Dark Love Phoenix!
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Alexis meets Aidan

I cry myself to tears every single night
coz am losing you.. losing you without a fight.
you’re not going, nor am I leaving
but we’re being torn apart

by time, fate, and circumstance

Every chance I get, I wrap myself around you
and tell you how much I love you,
hold you close like the day would never end
You’re just right here, so near yet so far
Coz it’s almost time..

It’s almost time to say goodbye, again
but this time, it might be for good
if not – how long will it take?
When will you be back in my arms again?
Maybe soon? maybe never!
Should I hope or should I despair?

I don’t know… We don’t know…

Days from now, I would no longer be able to hold you close like this…
and I wonder if you’d still hear me, when I say I love you in my mind
I wonder if you’d hear me every time I breathe your name into the air
I wonder if you’d know, you’re all I would be thinking of while we’re apart–

It’s almost time and it’s killing me –
I’ve long been dead, yet i am dying still, and dying over and over again
I will only come back to life the next time you’d light up my world
with your smile and your love – ’til then I guess….
or maybe not…

Title: It’s almost time
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Forbidden Love Poetry

“Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life.”

I guess that’s what I’ve been doing the whole time. I’ve been wanting to get further and take things to a whole new level and move forward, but so much is holding me back from doing so. From this day onward, I’ll try to change my way of thinking and my perspective toward things and life. Like what I’ve said in my previous post, I’m now learning the art of staying and thinking positive. I know I can move on, I just need to take one step at a time.

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