What is the price of a single smile that i cant even afford to paint it on my lips? The last few weeks has been very difficult for me in fact I really had a hard time dealing with all the changes in my life. But today, I just wrote a rather positive post entitled I am happy. Although I had it published in my other blog, Alexis Wired. Some would rather read it as Alex is Wired. Whatever suits you is alright. AlexIsWired is basically just another blog filled with my deviations in life, love, and etc. Aidan here is more like my poetry and writings blog. I guess what makes AlexIsWired different is that it has less of the poetry side and more of the random musings and ramblings plus some techy posts. Anyway, I just wanted to share. Check it out, if you want. I’ll go for now and log on to check my assignments from the university online. See ya later.
I’ve never met anyone like you, I’ve never loved anyone as much as I love you. If only I knew you’d come, I would’ve waited for you. No one has ever loved me the way that you do. How I wish there’s a way to make things work between us. I want us to be more than just this….
I love you even if it’s not right. Even if ours is a love– forbidden. You mean everything to me but we can’t be. If only I had a choice, I would choose to be with you more than anyone else, but I have to do what I must. I have already promised myself to someone. If only I could follow my heart and do what I really want… I would choose to spend the rest of my life and forever with you, but I am left without a choice.
(….and I love you whether it’s wrong or right, and though I can’t be with you tonight, my heart is always by your side- If you’re not the one, daniel beddingfield)
I may be with him/her but you know that you have my heart, and my life would never be complete without you. I would only be truly happy when the time comes that we can be together.
A: I’m sorry for everything that I’ve done wrong, I never meant to hurt you – it just happened.
B : We can still work it out and stay together. I just want you to know that I love you in spite and despite of all the mistakes you’ve committed… I love you, I don’t want to lose you. I will never leave you and I will never let you go – ever.
A: I love you too… ugh (but I don’t think I can love you as much as I used to or make things stay the way they used to be, but I will try… So much has changed between us. I love you but I love her/him more…)
Now, let me ask you something. What hurts more?
A love so right at the wrong time, or loving and being with someone –
who loves someone else more than he/she loves you?
I’m grounded right now. I can’t go anywhere and the doctor said that I need complete bed rest. I guess there’s really no need to be told I’m grounded, because I am most of the time. Three days ago, I just had a short time out with Kuya(big bro) Karl and it rained really hard. It was weird coz the weather was steaming hot when we went out. He just wanted to test ride my new bike. When we were on our way home, the rain suddenly poured really hard that we were dripping when we got home. My mom got really upset, but it was fun. I had fever since that night and until now, and frequent asthma attacks again. My mom is even thinking of taking me to the hospital again, an idea that I completely detest. I hate staying at the hospital.
(Sigh) Talking about having a hard time breathing, this is one of those times. Anyway, I have Mac around to play with while everyone is out. But, I can’t really have him around that much because of my asthma. Although Mac is always trying to find a way to get near me, then he starts doing that “meow, meow” and looks at me in the eye as if saying pick me up. I can’t help but pet him and stroke his head when he starts kneading my leg and rub his cheek against it. I hate having asthma.. (sigh)
I’m feeling a bit woozy now. I haven’t really slept much in the past few weeks. I guess it’s also one of the reasons why my resistance is getting really low and I get sick so easily. I guess I’ll just hit my bed first, close my eyes and try to get some sleep.
No poems for now, I will try to post a new one perhaps in a couple of days. I hope you guys won’t get tired of reading my posts. Thanks!
And to the one I love… The following lines in the Song “If you’re not the one” by daniel beddingfield goes out to you…
I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side
I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
