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Happy Day

Alexis — Thu, 08 May 2008 06:49:15 +0000

The smile won’t leave my face
and words that escape from my lips
are words of love, of happiness
…of Me and You

I can’t seem to find the right words
to describe this feeling…

So, let me simply say
that it’s a happy day!

� 2007-2008 Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Forbidden Love

Grounded

Alexis — Mon, 05 May 2008 07:22:51 +0000

I’m grounded right now. I can’t go anywhere and the doctor said that I need complete bed rest. I guess there’s really no need to be told I’m grounded, because I am most of the time. Three days ago, I just had a short time out with Kuya(big bro) Karl and it rained really hard. It was weird coz the weather was steaming hot when we went out. He just wanted to test ride my new bike. When we were on our way home, the rain suddenly poured really hard that we were dripping when we got home. My mom got really upset, but it was fun. I had fever since that night and until now, and frequent asthma attacks again. My mom is even thinking of taking me to the hospital again, an idea that I completely detest. I hate staying at the hospital.

(Sigh) Talking about having a hard time breathing, this is one of those times. Anyway, I have Mac around to play with while everyone is out. But, I can’t really have him around that much because of my asthma. Although Mac is always trying to find a way to get near me, then he starts doing that “meow, meow” and looks at me in the eye as if saying pick me up. I can’t help but pet him and stroke his head when he starts kneading my leg and rub his cheek against it. I hate having asthma.. (sigh)

I’m feeling a bit woozy now. I haven’t really slept much in the past few weeks. I guess it’s also one of the reasons why my resistance is getting really low and I get sick so easily. I guess I’ll just hit my bed first, close my eyes and try to get some sleep.

No poems for now, I will try to post a new one perhaps in a couple of days. I hope you guys won’t get tired of reading my posts. Thanks!

And to the one I love… The following lines in the Song “If you’re not the one” by daniel beddingfield goes out to you…

I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don�t wanna run away but I can�t take it, I don�t understand
If I�m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

� 2007-2008 Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Forbidden Love

there's a season and reason for everything

Alexis — Sat, 26 Apr 2008 00:17:14 +0000

There’s a reason and season for everything

When you’re living in a season
and that season is done
When the spring has past
and summer won’t last
From green to red -
and yellow seeming-like-gold
the leaves start to fall
then everything grows dreary and dull…

When you’re living for a reason
and that reason is gone
tears start falling while your heart’s breaking
but there’s nothing you can do
to stop things from withering

And then everything goes wrong
You feel so cold and all alone
The snow starts to fall – melting in your eyes
You sigh and ask God, Why?

Then God sings the Ecclessian song
Life has its seasons,
and everything happens for a reason

There’s a time to laugh
and a time to cry
a time to say hello
and a time to say goodbye

There’s a time to love and not to love
A time to hold on, and a time to let go

So, when you’re facing uncertainty
and you do not understand
why things aren’t the way they used to be
Don’t be weary – just think of it this way
there’s a season and reason for everything

It’s not hot but you’re sweating
it’s not cold but you’re shaking
Then you sigh, and ask God why—-

Well, that could be something else my friend.

� 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Forbidden Love Poetry

Aidan's new Friend

Alexis — Fri, 14 Mar 2008 16:22:53 +0000

A new friend named Will e-mailed me and said he is interested in writing for this blog, and since I’m opening Aidan to making new friends, I have made this special side of my blog for submitted entries. If you want to become one of Aidan’s new friends, you’re most welcome here!

getting Aidan on the list

Alexis — Sun, 24 Feb 2008 11:45:56 +0000

A bot friendly Aidan

Howdy Aidan! I’m a little busy today, since my sis Sandy asked me to do a not so easy task. I’m almost done with it though. After this, I will have to do some pending meme. To those who hit me with the tags, sorry for the delay, I’ll work on it soon as I get over and done with all my paperwork.
What’s new aside from that? Well, I’m doing this blog a little pampering. I guess that was a couple for weeks ago when I blogged about submitting this blog to the three major search engines manually, I guess that did you a lot of good, right Aidan? This blog became more visible to people. I’m not really that internet savvy, I’m just here to blog about my thoughts and how I feel. But today, I got to talk to a friend who kept on blabbing about Search Engine Optimization and all that, he said that if I want to reach out to the whole internet citizens out there, drive more people to visit my site and read my blog, I need to optimize Aidan. We did a few quick steps, tweaked the meta tags, etc., and then he said that in days time, this blog will be crawled and listed in all other search engines. Aidan getting crawled by bots? That sounded a little off but cool at the same time. Isn’t that good news my friend? Well, for me it is. So, does this mean I should expect my parents to find and read this blog sooner or later? Oh well, perhaps that’s part of it. I guess I better groom Aidan and get this blog ready for the world. Ha-ha!

a work in progress

Alexis — Thu, 07 Feb 2008 20:02:59 +0000

It’s been a great day. Why? Too many reasons, but let me enumerate a few. First, I got to talk to someone whom I never thought I would still be able to talk with. Second, my mom finally agreed about me doing a continuing education online. Third, Aidan is gaining friends again and I think it’s wonderful. At least now, Aidan knows there are those who take time to read the entries or at least drop by to say hi. Most people were actually surprised to find that I have Aidan in this other side of the blog world. Well, I guess it’s time to introduce Aidan to more friends in the upcoming days. Thanks to BC, entrecard, etc., but most of all thanks to my good old blog friends who are still there. Sorry for being invisible guys, I was just trying to fix my little corner. Hope from now on I could continue blogging again. Aidan is still a work of love in progress, and your love is definitely felt and appreciated.

new venture

Alexis — Thu, 31 Jan 2008 05:34:16 +0000

Guess what? I just signed up my bittersweetcollide blog Aidan with blogsvertise, we’re hoping that Aidan will get accepted and this new venture will be a successful one. I have heard good things about it’s service and the opportunities they provide to bloggers like me and blogs like Aidan. They just mailed me to inform that my blog Aidan is under review, hopefully we’d make it to blogsvertise circle of bloggers. I’m only hoping for the best.

lost and found

Alexis — Wed, 30 Jan 2008 17:46:44 +0000

Lost and found, only to get lost again…. Howdy Aidan, I’ve been reading through my past posts and I found a strange entry that I’m not likely to write, but who else would’ve wrote it but me. It’s entitled “What�s Love Got to do”. It’s like some strange plant that we studied during ecology, so strange i cant determine if i were really the one who wrote it. During those times I was really down, I felt so helpless and frustration nearly got the better of me. If you happened to read my entry entitles “Who are you??” you might have guessed that I was feeling lost that time. I was really confused too, because of two important people in my life. Then, a month after that I met someone who cheered me up, we became so close that we shared almost anything about our lives. Do you remember Panda? That’s the person I’m talking about. I felt not exactly free but I’ve known myself better. It was like being lost for awhile and getting found. We’re happy when we’re together, we could spend a day or two talking without getting tired to the extent that we hardly notice the time. But now, things have gotten so complicated that I have this great fear of losing that someone completely. I know you’re listening to me Aidan, what am I supposed to do at bittersweet collide moments like this? I know that we can’t have anything more than what we have now, but how I wish things were different. Now, the only thing I could say is, “If only…”

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It's been so long

Alexis — Sat, 19 Jan 2008 13:06:32 +0000

Hey Aidan! I know you must be feeling bad and thinking I have completely forgotten about you. the truth is I was just too preoccupied with other concerns, but i never intended to get rid of you completely, I just had to take a little breather. I guess I just needed some time away because everything got so complicated. It’s not just you whom I have lost time and attention for, even the rest had to suffer the same fate too, and all because I acted like stupid and pathetic. Don’t you worry, from now on I’ll try to spend more time on here. Perhaps it’s time that I tell you all the things that’s been happening to me. I think square head and the rest won’t be able to handle the pressure anymore, they’ve been too exposed to the whole world and to monetization. You may learn those things in time, but for now, be my companion.

bittersweet

Alexis — Fri, 18 Jan 2008 19:08:21 +0000

It’s been awhile since I set-up this other blog and it’s only awhile ago that I got to take notice of it again. I’ve been reading through my posts and they made me smile. It made me miss Aidan. Who’s Aidan? Well Aidan is an “it”. This blog, bittersweetcollide. I know that sounds crazy but yes, my blog does have a name. I’ve decided to work on my conversations with Aidan again. Perhaps that would help me a lot especially right now. I was so surprised because Aidan has PR3 now and to think that I have forgotten about it. Well not completely but intentionally, for some stupid reasons. After all, Aidan stayed alive and is just waiting for me to open up again.