finding emo
I thought of you as always, but today was different. I am more at peace with nothing but myself. I am not sure what’s going to happen next, I am just so freakin tired of all the arguments. I think what we have now is better than not having anything at all.
I’ve given you the best years of my life, I got stucked in the memory of us and everything that we shared together and still longing for it. I know it isn’t just me, I know both of us has been trying to hang on to all the things we treasured. I held on to everything that’s you with my dear life, and I know that you’ve done the same, but so many things happened already and perhaps it’s about time we take a rest first. No, I am not trying to say goodbye like what you’re thinking, I just simple want us to find ourselves again. That way, It wouldn’t be so hard for us to find each other again.
At least now, I have a diversion which is writing. I know I never was and never will be a good writer but I could always write with my heart. I guess it’s time I pour out all these boxed emotions that I’ve locked up inside me. I think it’s time to gather every single memory I possibly could, and remember the time, good and bad, not to relive them and commit the same mistakes along the way, but try to find every lesson I could to make things better tomorrow.
just a little disclaimer:
Before I start doing this blog, I would just like to make this disclaimer post. All throughout the blog I will be using pre-assigned aliases to all the people and characters that will be mentioned in my post to keep their identities protected. I am doing this in the request of some people whose names would rather not be mentioned anywhere in this blog, yet agreed to be given aliases to avoid using blanks instead of names. So, be aware that if ever any name is similar to a person you know or that of your own, that name would simply be someone else that has something to do with my life or people that I interact with. If names will be mentioned, there will be simple description of that character. For comments don’t hesitate to send e-mails but no spamming please. Thank You and welcome to my new home.
Wake Me Up When September Ends
I promised myself to start something new this October, and one of the things I’d like to work on is a new blog. I’ll be parking my post here for now, just wake me up when September ends.
*going back to sleep
There may be days when you get up in the morning and things aren’t the way you had hoped they would be. That’s when you have to tell yourself that things will get better.
There are times when people disappoint you and let you down. But those are the times when you remind yourself to trust your own judgments and opinions, to keep your life focused on believing in yourself.
There will be challenges to face and changes to make in your life, and it is up to you to accept them.
Constantly keep yourself headed in the right direction for you. It may not be easy at times, but in those times of struggle,
you will find a stronger sense of who you are. So when the days come that are filled with frustration and unexpected responsibilities, remember to believe in yourself and all you want your life to be.
Because the challenges and changes will only help you to find the goals that you know are meant to come true for you.
Keep believing in yourself.
Loneliness by Rainer Maria Rilke
Translated by Robert Bly
Being apart and lonely is like rain.
It climbs toward evening from the ocean plains;
from flat places, rolling and remote, it climbs
to heaven, which is its old abode.
And only when leaving heaven drops upon the city. Read more »
whatever happened to this world?
It’s sad to see how immorality, materialism, and vanity consumed the multitude’s mindset. How people stay together for the wrong reasons, how couples fall far apart because of illicit affairs, and how the number of women who opt for abortion (as a result of unwanted pregnancies and failed relationships) is continuously growing.Humans have evolved not only to mechanical thinkers but have also forgotten the real essence of life and love itself.
Have you noticed how people are growing manic over different obsessions? How sex abodes are becoming like fast food chains, and how plastic surgery is treated like changing sheaths of an apparatus…. ?!%
….whatever happened to this world…?
on life, being yourself, and me just ranting whatever
from the movie zoolander:
Hansel: “I hear a lot of words like “beauty” and “handsomeness” and “incredibly chiseled features.” To me that’s like a vanity, a self-absorption that I try to steer clear of. I dig the bungee. For me, it’s just the way I live my life. I grip it and I rip it. I live it with a lot of flair. I live it on the edge, where I gotta be. I wasn’t like every other kids you know who dreams about being and astronaut. I was always more interested in aaaaa ? what bark was made out of on a tree. Richard Gere’s a real hero of mine. Sting. Sting would be another person who’s a hero. The music that he’s created over the years – I don’t really listen to it. But the fact that he’s making it, I respect that. I care desperately about what I do. Do I know what product I’m selling? No. Do I know what I’m doing today? No. But I’m here and I’m gonna give it my best shot.”
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what i have to say… “
….the value of a person could not be measured by the looks… Each and everyone one of us is a unique entity with unique qualities. We have our own ways of doing things. Even rules just serve as a guide but could not perfectly make everyone do uniform moves. So whatever or whoever you are, wherever you may be… whatever is it that you’re doing, give it your best shot without losing respect for other people’s individuality. Remember, they are just like you who are being themselves and doing their own thing.
Everything in this world is inevitable, and no one really knows whats gonna happen next. Anything can happen. The person who is beside you right now ::may be gone later:: who knows? (no one does)
We can try to make up reasons as to why we’re here in this world, but the truth is?
No one really knows…
No one knows why we eat.. work.. play.. and do stuff.. and Why we live just to die again…
(again) What’s important is that despite not knowing the reasons behind everything, Just live and make each and every moment count! Be and do the best that you can and let others be – without finding any reasons to judge them!
It makes me wanna think of going back to school for good, maybe it’s about time to check online courses and follow my original plans.
how cute ….
this is making me miss my bed… and my pillows.. hmm *yawns*
how many times do i have to experience losing my entries for some whatever reason? I deleted one entry but i was dumbfounded when i checked and i was missing two others. where the hell did they go?
uhh *yawns* off to bed for now.. rant later. ta-ta!
CORRUPTION- When will it ever cease?
it’s like wishing for the impossible…
Benjamin Abalos – Chairman of the Commission on Elections.
The designation is pretty clear, isn’t it?
It doesn’t say anything like “government projects broker” or Dept. of Telecommunications Representative for foreign investments. But what’s the buzz about his being a part of this overpriced ZTE broadband project deal? And what’s with Gloria and the rest of the gang approving this deal without going through the normal “bidding” process? How much money is leaking out from another government “LOAN” that the Filipino people will be paying for and suffering from in the next few years? What’s with the strong “not backing out from the deal” statement? Could it be that they have already invested the money that they stole from this project and can’t return them just in case the Chinese company asks for it the moment the deal gets canceled??
What’s up with hiding the whole deal from the Filipino people?
*Sigh* Erap just got convicted for plunder. When will these guys ever learn their lessons?
