Summer is almost here, I’m excited but at the same time I’m not, because I’m not sure if I’d still be here by then. I am scheduled to move to HK this April. I’ve been begging my dad to let me stay even just until the the twenty-second of May, because my big bro will be home by then. Karl is a seaman by profession. Now, a second mate in a Norwegian shipping company. He’s been away for almost a year now and he will be home for Kate’s birthday. Kate is the name of my niece.
Alright, back to Karl. We’re really close as in our bond is unbreakable. He’s always played the perfect role of a big brother and took care of us. During our childhood years, Whenever we are left alone at home, he really tries to find his way around the kitchen just to be able to provide and prepare food for us. He cooks really well just like my younger brother Jay. Karl, my cousin Adrian and I are the closest in the family. We became like that of a team, most especially during those days when our parents were away and we were left with our grandma. We always do things together and we keep an eye on each other. It’s always been one for all and all for one in good times and even in trouble. I’m the type who is into sports and solving puzzles of any kind, and Karl has a talent in handicraft, Ian is the type who is really lucky when it comes to gaming, like playing card games and all that, but the three of us are both into swimming and martial arts.

Today, I run across a childhood friend. It brought back too many memories. I won’t mention her name because she has become a high profiled person, although she is now married to a high profiled guy as well, and they have a beautiful son whose name is Skye. They really looked great together.
After we talked, I couldn’t help but smile, because I was reminded of the good old days, back when we were still neighbors. Actually, we are closer than neighbors because her mom is my sis’ god mom and my mom is her god mom, so that’s how close our family is.
She has always been pretty but then when we were young she was kinda chubby. All my cousins used to call her tabbyphat. She then run away and hide, then she gives us this sticky tongue annoyed look every time. After so many years has passed, we transferred to another city, and they also transferred to the same city but far from our house. So we hardly see each other except during special occasions. During high school we were so surprised when we found out that she became the miss university and we could hardly believe it. The once tabbyphat girlie has finally lost all her baby fats and turned into a beauty queen model. Man, all my cousins were drooling over her, but it was too late because whenever she sees us, she still does that sticky out tongue annoyed face. My cousins were regretting because they couldn’t even come up to her and tell her how beautiful she’s become. Other than that she started to have celebrity guys hanging around with her. She became a professional model after she became one of the winners in the model of the world competition, in fact she’s still modeling for Calvin Klein. I still get to see her in local magazines though but she only get to spend some of her time here, but mostly she’s somewhere out there, often in New York.
It’s just funny, when you get to remember the silly things you do back when you’re young. Ha-ha!

My sister was even saying she wants to design clothes for her one day. Shuei is dreaming of becoming a fashion designer, she’s always telling my mom that. Who knows she might get a chance to get into a fashion school in new york. Mom says it’s alright if she study hard and get a chance to grab a scholarship. I’ve read that fashion schools new york are topnotch and many great designers emerged from there, let’s say for example Monique L., who is a well known fashion designer who emerged from the new york fashion schools, and made it big in the industry and Hollywood.

I used to think that planting hairs on a person’s scalp was something ridiculous, but of course it’s a good thing for those who doesn’t want to live without their crowns. I have never really seen anything like it before, neither did I pay attention on the matter until my friend from an online university told me a story about it. If you compare it to an extraterrestrial experience, hers would be an ultimately close encounter because it’s her dad who had the surgery done. I was dumbfounded when she told me about it, to the point that I could hardly believe it. But, a few days ago, she showed me a very reliable evidence. And those were the photos of her dad taken while having and after having hair transplant. Looking closely at the hairs and stitches reminded me of my older sister’s toy dolls way back when we were young. I know just how those hairs looked like because I used to pull them off their heads and my sister always end up crying. It’s amazing because it really looked similar to those dolls who have their hairs planted fancy like those in the photos of my friend’s dad. The hairs were planted in rows and columns. Her dad looked kinda funny though, but it’s really effective because now her dad’s head that used to be shiny scalp in the center is now filled with grown hairs.

For those who want their crowning glory back. Check out hair transplants and grow your dream hair back, and feel young again.

Aside from love and writing poems I have my say on other things too, things that are happening around me. Like views about people who want to look good and are willing to spend for it. I think there’s nothing wrong with it, although, it must be done right and with moderation. Perhaps if you want a makeover and you want something to be changed, you have to keep in mind that undoing it would be possible but it would never be like how it used to be. Let’s set Michael Jackson as an example, Jacko has overdone it and the result wasn’t pretty. But look at the rest of Hollywood stars who have gone under the knives and have those surgeons sculpt them into a work of art. There’s definitely nothing wrong with wanting to look great for as long as you can afford it and you’re willing to take the risk as well as adjust to the possible changes, in both your lifestyle, your looks, the way people look at you, but the best thing to do is simply look at the brighter side of life always. Is your hair straight? Curl it! Cut just make sure you won’t look stupid in it. Changing skin tones doesn’t take too much nowadays, unlike before that people only hoped for miracles to happen, and they never do when it comes to physical instant make over. That’s actually the reason why fairy tales were written. But now you need no fairy godmother to be beautiful, you just need the right budget and a trusted surgeon who can do the miracles for you. Big nose today, Washington DC nose job tomorrow, Cinderella and prince charming a week after. *Winks

My dad and his friend were talking about growing old and all the changes in their bodies. At 52, my dad looks 40 something. His hair is still naturally black and his skin has this youthful glow, while his friend Uncle Ted, who is much younger than my dad, looks really stressed and old. My dad’s secret? All natural stuff, exercise and vegetarian diet. Uncle Ted was saying, he might even consider going under the knives and needles to bring back his youthful glow. while Uncle Ted who is I think around 5 years younger than my dad, at forty something he looks 50 something already. Actually, he looks really old with his hair growing white and all. I guess it’s stress related, and he gets over exposed to the sun since he’s been doing engineering field work almost all his life after college. I overheard Aunt Tina, Uncle Ted’s wife, saying she had skincare stuff. No wonder she looks pretty as always. It’s as if she’s never changed all these years. She looked almost the same when I saw her 3 years ago, with just a few almost unnoticeable lines near her eyes. I guess getting old is not only a state of mind but also a matter of choice. We can choose to look young by taking care of ourselves and eating the right food and doing exercise whenever we could. Some people consider other alternatives, but either way, it’s still is a choice whether you’d want to just look saggy and old, or remain younger looking all through the years.

Tears are words unspoken.

The rain pours suddenly without warning, and it pours so hard that sometimes it even takes too long before it’s gone. Sadly, there are times that its fury causes death.

I wonder if the angels in heaven are mourning over a loss or are they tears of happiness? I have no clue. All I know is that, when there is rain, the world turns green, and soon there will be more colors like that of the rainbow. After every rain pour, plants rejoice and flowers starts to bloom.

The rain, sometimes it may pour so hard but it’s never a curse. It’s always a blessing.

The rain brings me joy like how love does, it lightens my heart’s heavy load. When it pours, and my eyes with it, no one knows I’m crying. The rain gives freedom to my broken spirit.

So, dance with me in the rain, cry with me in the rain. Live, love and be free!

Title: The Rain – Tears are words unspoken
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Forbidden Love Poetry

My eyeglasses have been broken for awhile now, I’ve been wanting to get a new one, but since my eye had this scratch and it’s still healing, the doctor advised that I get one soon as it’s alright and fully healed, so I wouldn’t have to keep on changing glasses. So far, my eyes have learned to adjust but only in the dark, without my glasses I feel totally blind when I go out during daytime. It takes around thirty minutes to one hour before my eyes fully adjust to the environment’s lighting. Whenever I’m online I just use an eye protector to lessen the glare, but still after awhile my eyes start to get blurry, that’s why I don’t get to spend much time facing the computer screen. Although lately, I couldn’t seem to take my eyes off it, I have my own reasons for doing so, but still I try to make sure my eyes are protected from the direct uv rays coming from the computer screen. I find it quite amazing though, because I actually think that my eyes have been improving with the medications that I’ve been prescribed with, because before, with or without the eye protector, I couldn’t last facing the computer screen for a long time, but now I can, and my eyes aren’t as blurry as they used to me. I don’t know if it’s purely with the medications that I was given with or also with my rich in vitamin A diet. I hope my eyes would get totally healed soon, I need them so badly, most especially for my job.

So If you’re in front of the PC almost all the time, or you’re a bookworm or if you do things that causes your yes to get strained, protect them. Prevention is always better than cure.

I just want to post this song here, this is really special.
I really love this song. I hope that you guys would like it too.

Remember : Allister

Remember the moment you face
Is it all straight ahead or behind you?
Well maybe if you look around
You’ll see everything’s perfectly clear

Picture it all in your mind

Remember where we are now
Open your eyes
& take it all in
Remember where we are now
This is where your life begins

You feel like you’re lost in the crowd
Watching life go on without you
Well baby it’s your turn to shine
Everything’s starting right here

Don’t leave this moment behind

Remember where we are now
Open your eyes
& take it all in
Remember where we are now
This is where your life begins

Don’t look away
It’s the life that you choose now believe it
There’ll come a day
When you look up and see how good you are with me
Remember where we are now
Open your eyes
& take it all in
Remember where we are now
This is where your life begins

Whenever I keep quiet, I just really need to
don’t get me talking because I couldn’t lie to you
but since you want to know then okay I will tell
my heart is broken and I am not feeling so well

You asked me if I’m having a hard time breathing
I said, It’s nothing, I’m perfectly fine
But deep inside I’m being ripped and torn
my heart is bleeding, screaming in silence
spirit slowly dying and I couldn’t help it

I know I’ve been acting strange lately
more than it’s hurting you, it’s ten times hurting me
I’m not trying to stay away from you, if you only know
every single second without you is an endless torture
– that’s the truth

I told myself I have to spend time with you less often
coz the more we bond, the more that I couldn’t live without you
I’m just trying to do as you said I should,
to be able to exist without depending my happiness on you.

For the past six months you became my whole life
The only one I think about each second that passes by
The moment I wake up it’s your face that I first see
and the last before I close my eyes at the end of the day

and now… I’m crying like a little kid
missing you too much like missing you forever
to think that it’s only been a day that we’re not together

How much more when you leave me behind?
How else will I be able to survive?
How can I last without talking to you?
When it’s your voice that I hear even when you’re not there…

I know you’d hate to hear those words from me
but that’s exactly how I feel right now

I love you, I really do...but our love is a love that is forbidden.

Title: sighs turned into words
© 2007-2008 BittersweetCollide.com – Where ends meet and BitterSweet Collide, Forbidden Love Poetry

You’ve given me…
more than what you think you have.

You make me wanna do the things I used to dislike,
love the things I used to hate
and pay attention to people and things
that I never gave a damn about. Continue Reading »