It’s hard to leave when all you ever wanted was to stay. But being told too many times to just go away, what do you do? Probably for some it would be just an easy situation, and the easiest decision to make it so just get out that door, shut it off, and never look back, but I find it too hard to do.

There are so many exit signs in my life right now. I don’t know what to do anymore. I know that I have to learn how to deal with the situation, and to accept that this is what life is all about. People come and go, there is a begining and there is an end

I wonder if someone is out there to catch me coz I’m falling and this time I’m about to hit the sharp precipice of life head and chest on. How I wish there’s fall protection in love, you fall but you don’t break and get crashed when there is no one to catch you anymore, and the one you love is gone.
Hmm, I know that sounds cheesy, but really now, how I wish I never broke my guards down. At least, I would still come out of the situation unbruised. But, it’s too late for that now. Besides, when you’re in that situation, it’s so hard to think, all you can do is feel and flel, and you even loose control of those emotions. Now, can someone tell me loving isn’t strange?

Now you think you know, later you’ll find out you don’t, and worst you find yourself lost, wandering, and estranged. Constant unexpected changes and surprises, bitter and sweet — that’s what life is filled with. Actually, that’s what life is all about…
Everything is inevitable, so when you have it or you’re in a most favorable and happy situation, you gotta make the most out of it, because once it’s gone you’ll regret that you let the chance pass without giving your all, but if you did give it your everything — you have a lot of happy times to reminisce and treasure for the rest of your days.
We don’t get an assurance for anything, don’t you wish that it was easy as getting an insurance online to make things permanent, or to have a back-up just in case life needs some troubleshooting? Again, everything in life is inevitable, so don’t just sit there and think life is going to be easy tomorrow just because it is now. Or of it’s hard now, try to at least find a way to make things better tomorrow. It won’t be easy.. I know.

This week and the previous is full of sudden twists and turns, from the way people are, to the weather, and even some things that was expected to be a sure thing suddenly took a three hundred sixty degree turn. Well, I guess that is life’s true essence… eternal change.

I just hope that the weather will be fine soon so I can go out without having to take a ride to buy some of my necessities. The heavy rain pours and the flooded roads is making it hard for me to go to the nearby market. I also need to buy extra water supply just in case the weather continues to worsen. I’ve got no ukf8001axx to treat the water supply here, and I don’t wanna compromise. I’ve had a lot of bad tummy times coz of eating food that was prepared using the water here, and I want no more of that. I guess I’ll wait till the rain stops even just for awhile and take the chance to refill.