on accepting things and moving on towards a new direction
Sometimes, no matter how hard - we have to accept the truth, and that’s what I’m trying to do. I know it won’t be easy, but I will try, because it’s only the truth that will set me free. There are things in life that no matter how much we desire - we couldn’t have, simply because it’s not meant for us. Not accepting this truth will just lead us to even more pain and depression. The sad part of it is, even if we keep sulking and crying over it for the rest of our lives, it wouldn’t change anything.
“Sometimes what seems like surrender isn’t surrender at all. It’s about what’s going on in our hearts. About seeing clearly the way life is and accepting it and being true to it, whatever the pain, because the pain of not being true to it is far, far greater.” — Nicholas Evans
Lex: I wish I can.. I wish id be strong enough
K: yeah, i used to think i can’t do it too, that I’m not strong enough… but I’m doing alright… although it’s sad sometimes, memories of our past tend to creep into my consciousness, and I’ll be feeling depressed, but hey, no use moping around..
Lex: You were able to free yourself from it completely?
K: 
Lex: I wish I could find that strength..
not that i don’t love her or.. anything, but I want things to be right.. I’m tired of hiding.. of waiting for the chance — that may never come…
K: yeah, there’s always that struggle inside you.. between your love for her and your desire to make things right. i know exactly how it feels. well i can’t say that I’m COMPLETELY free from him emotionally… but at least I’m getting there… 
it’s not gonna be easy though, and certainly not in an instant…
Lex: well yeah, have you found yourself a new love, or you’re just loving yourself more?
K: just loving myself more for now, i guess… i haven’t done that in a long time. I’ve put so much of myself in the relationship, and always putting him first, I’ve taken myself for granted..
I’m happy for this new friend. Finally, she got to move on.. if not completely - at least she’s pressing on towards it… a new direction -
May 23rd, 2008 at 4:25 am
You are quite correct. We try hard to achieve some goals but not that success is guaranteed. And under those situations you need to learn to compromise.
May 24th, 2008 at 1:38 am
never take your self for granted
robert bourne’s last blog post..A Day In The Life
May 27th, 2008 at 7:51 am
i have no doubt that you can do it. After all, you can never go wrong with loving yourself. Moving on is hard, but it will get easier, all it takes is the courage to change.
angel’s last blog post..Broken Reflections