caught in between being happy and sad
I’m happy because I’ve noticed old friends coming to my new site, I’ve been lost for awhile and my other blog became a complete mess, but here I am picking myself up from where I left things off. I’m glad to have new friends who are very helpful and at the same time willing to accept me as I am. To all those who added me up, loads of thanks. Same to those who wish to add me to their lists. I’m happy on how Aidan is progressing really fast, but I can’t help but be sad too.
The person who’s been there for me the whole time, the one who never failed to encourage me, the one whom I dedicate all my love to is leaving me. I don’t know how many times we’ve tried to say our goodbyes already, but we always end up talking again. Although this time, I’m afraid she might be really serious about it. After dad talked to us last night, giving us advice on how to handle the situation, I think she finally decided to leave me behind for good. I think it’s just fair to the one she belongs to, and even to the one I left behind because of her.
It’s really hard even just to think about it, but we both know that it’s something that we must do. I don’t want people to judge her, we love each other but there’s nothing going on between us, we simply decided to stay as friends, but the more that we talk and hold on, the deeper our feelings become for each other, and the harder it is to let go.
I’m not sure how I’d move on and go through life without her by my side. For the past few months, she’s been my constant company. She’s the only one who ever really understood, and I can even say that she knows me more than anyone else. She’s not just a friend, but a sibling as well as someone who loved me for everything that I am good or bad. My alter ego.
I really don’t know what to do or feel right now, but I pray that she’d stay even just a little bit longer, even just for another day.
Just another day… *sobs
Why can’t it be?
Why can’t it be the two of us?
Why can’t we be lovers, only friends.
You came at the wrong place
.. and at the wrong time…
or was it me?
Feb 19th, 2008 at 4:16 pm
I have to comment on your theme. I love it!!! This is the first time that I have visited your blog and your Advert Image caught my attention. I really think it was cool and when I entered your blog, all I can say was damn, this is a cool site. Just a suggestion, maybe you can change some of your images to match your theme, like the technorati image. It’s just a suggestion though. Happy blogging and goodluck with Aidan.
Feb 19th, 2008 at 9:46 pm
Hugs lexxx…. I’m here and a friend too… hugs againnn… ~~~~ God has reasons for everything. In time things will be fine….. in time…
Feb 19th, 2008 at 9:57 pm
@Louie - Thanks for the compliment tom of royale deserves all the credits, thanks for takin time and the advert image is really meaningful to me. I’m glad you loved the site. Thanks for the suggestion, I’m looking for a button right now. Aidan and I are off to visit your site.
Mar 7th, 2008 at 10:50 am
@wirchy - Thanks for always being there witchy! hehe suki!