I’m happy because I am picking myself up from where I left things off. I’m happy on how Aidan is progressing really fast, but I can’t help but be sad too.

The person who’s been there for me the whole time, the one who never failed to encourage me, the one whom I dedicate all my love to is leaving me. I don’t know how many times we’ve tried to say our goodbyes already, but we always end up talking again. Although this time, I’m afraid she might be really serious about it. I think she finally decided to leave me behind for good. I think it’s just fair to the one she belongs to, and even to the one I left behind because of her.

It’s really hard even just to think about it, but we both know that it’s something that we must do. I don’t want people to judge her, we love each other but there’s nothing going on between us, we simply decided to stay as friends, but the more that we talk and hold on, the deeper our feelings become for each other, and the harder it is to let go.

I’m not sure how I’d move on and go through life without her by my side. For the past few months, she’s been my constant company. She’s the only one who ever really understood, and I can even say that she knows me more than anyone else.

I really don’t know what to do or feel right now, but I pray that she’d stay even just a little bit longer, even just for another day.
Just another day… *sobs

Why can’t it be?
Why can’t it be the two of us?
Why can’t we be lovers, only friends.
You came at the wrong place
.. and at the wrong time…

or was it me?

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