BEFORE AND AFTER.

Forbidden Love

We’ve decided not to talk anymore,
you’ve decided to leave me behind
I felt so broken but we had no other choice
and so I let you walk away Continue Reading »

I got this “Make Love, Not War” tag from Zhoe and Madamoiselle:

I think this is quite simple and we don’t have to complicate things. Diplomacy should always prevail rather than using firearms and other destructive weapons to conquer and defeat other nations. If only all nations could co-exist in peace and without any conflict, war would be just another word. Let’s just pray that world leaders would be enlightened and would work on unity among all nations instead. So let’s all say Yes to Peace and No to War.

Now it’s my turn to pass on this TAG, and I’m hitting:

• where the walls are soft – Les Becker
• picture clusters – Maiylah
• shadowscope – Richard
• beautiful minds – Vish

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PS: Read a good blog today

Random Musings of a Deranged Soul

It’s been a week or so since my best buddy and semi-adopted brother OZ, went on a trip. And now he’s back, just right on time before the big day, which is happening tomorrow. Although I’m quite saddened by his news. Oz mentioned about his sister moving to New York, same reason why he has to leave within this year so that he could help her out. Well, she’s pretty young and perhaps she could use an extra hand to do certain stuff and take care of things for her. But I read on a certain website that relocating isn’t really much of a hassle nowadays since there are a lot of movers companies who are offering such services. The one I got to read about was that pertaining to South Carolina mls but I guess this is applicable to all states. That is not something to be so surprised about since there are even some companies who are even offering assistance in moving to another country. So how much more if you’re just planning to move to, let’s say for example Spartanburg or perhaps Greenville, or anywhere within SC. I think the most important thing to consider during the moving process is the safety of your things. Well, I do hope Oz’s sister will get to move safely and without any problems. I would sure miss having my buddy, and partner in crime around. Happy Birthday OZ!

Miming Monday

A bot friendly Aidan

Howdy Aidan! I’m a little busy today, since my sis Sandy asked me to do a not so easy task. I’m almost done with it though. After this, I will have to do some pending meme. To those who hit me with the tags, sorry for the delay, I’ll work on it soon as I get over and done with all my paperwork.
What’s new aside from that? Well, I’m doing this blog a little pampering. I guess that was a couple for weeks ago when I blogged about submitting this blog to the three major search engines manually, I guess that did you a lot of good, right Aidan? This blog became more visible to people. I’m not really that internet savvy, I’m just here to blog about my thoughts and how I feel. But today, I got to talk to a friend who kept on blabbing about Search Engine Optimization and all that, he said that if I want to reach out to the whole internet citizens out there, drive more people to visit my site and read my blog, I need to optimize Aidan. We did a few quick steps, tweaked the meta tags, etc., and then he said that in days time, this blog will be crawled and listed in all other search engines. Aidan getting crawled by bots? That sounded a little off but cool at the same time. Isn’t that good news my friend? Well, for me it is. So, does this mean I should expect my parents to find and read this blog sooner or later? Oh well, perhaps that’s part of it. I guess I better groom Aidan and get this blog ready for the world. Ha-ha!

I just wanna share this poem that I wrote
back when I was in Grade School.

“Luna’s Eyes”

When all you see is darkness
you just have to lift your head up high
Luna’s eyes speak of truth amidst all the lies
Luna’s eyes drown in pain whenever you cry
You’re never alone, someone understands
You’ll find all the answers in Luna’s eyes Continue Reading »

I’m happy because I am picking myself up from where I left things off. I’m happy on how Aidan is progressing really fast, but I can’t help but be sad too.

The person who’s been there for me the whole time, the one who never failed to encourage me, the one whom I dedicate all my love to is leaving me. I don’t know how many times we’ve tried to say our goodbyes already, but we always end up talking again. Although this time, I’m afraid she might be really serious about it. I think she finally decided to leave me behind for good. I think it’s just fair to the one she belongs to, and even to the one I left behind because of her.

It’s really hard even just to think about it, but we both know that it’s something that we must do. I don’t want people to judge her, we love each other but there’s nothing going on between us, we simply decided to stay as friends, but the more that we talk and hold on, the deeper our feelings become for each other, and the harder it is to let go.

I’m not sure how I’d move on and go through life without her by my side. For the past few months, she’s been my constant company. She’s the only one who ever really understood, and I can even say that she knows me more than anyone else.

I really don’t know what to do or feel right now, but I pray that she’d stay even just a little bit longer, even just for another day.
Just another day… *sobs

Why can’t it be?
Why can’t it be the two of us?
Why can’t we be lovers, only friends.
You came at the wrong place
.. and at the wrong time…

or was it me?

So in love, It shows.

They said that when you’re inlove it’s too obvious in so many ways, I think it’s right. Everyone at home noticed so many changes in me for the past few months. Actually, everyone I know did notice, even my neighbors who used to complain about me being so grumpy and all that says I smile at them more often now. I wasn’t aware of that though, I guess those were just moments that I got lost in thoughts of you, then I smile without even knowing so.
I do believe that I’ve really changed a lot, even I can’t help but notice too. I’m not really that much of a techy person or anything, and while everyone are crazy about their phones to the extent that they cannot live without one, I’m the type who hardly uses mine. Sometimes I even forget where I placed it that my dad keeps on complaining that I don’t get to answer his calls. Even my friends and other family members are complaining about the same thing. Well, until you came, and I started to care about my phone somehow. I never really had the time to figure out how Polyphonic Ringtones are customized or replaced, but now my phone has your voice playing as it’s tune when it’s ringing. It used to have some pre-loaded Hip Hop Ringtones and even those stuff that my brother uploaded in it like game character sounds, Dance Ringtones, and etc. But now, whenever someone sends a message, it’s your voice that’s playing over and over again. It’s so hard not to notice my phone now that it has your photo as the wallpaper too. I know it’s so obvious, but what can I do? I’m in love and it shows.