I have mentioned Ice to you on my last blog. Do you have an idea just who this character is huh Aidan? I know It wasn’t such a good introduction since I have mentioned the name along with negativity in the air, but to be fair enough, let me introduce Ice from a different perspective.
Why the name? I just remembered friends calling Ice that way in the past and even today. Ice is a lover, a friend and a teacher at the same time. Sometimes I consider this person as a sibling that I never had.
Ice and I have been in a relationship for quite awhile now, just a few more years and it’s like being together for almost half of our lives. But sad to say that we are in a hanging status now, hanging in a sense that we don’t know if it should still be us or not. Although we both know that what we have is still there. I know that’s quite confusing but that’s the way it is. I am confused about that status myself, but it’s my idea so… Yeah I know sometimes my ideas are insane and blurry, but what can I do?

with all due emo-ness

It’s been a few days. I’m sorry if it seemed like I have neglected you, We both know it’s not true. It’s just that I had to settle a lot of things with square head and the rest of the gang. I had to deal with Ice as well. Love seems to be hard on me these days. Endless arguments and tears, What’s new? I wanted to spare you from that with all due emo-ness. I want you to be a happy blog Aidan, as happy as can be. But I know there’ll come a time that I wouldn’t be able to shield you from all my emotions especially pain, suffering, tears, fears, heart break. I have not introduced you to those yet. I guess there’s isn’t such a thing as a nice way to let you get to know them, and as much as possible I would want you to learn of them in the most natural way. Hopefully, even if one day I would be talking to you about nothing but those, you’d still emerge as one happy blog in the end, and we can talk about almost anything, but right now I have to take care of my degree programs. So long for now Aidan, til next time

To wear or not to wear?

I’m talking about Jeans, which reminds me of Panda. lol. Yeah, Panda of b-cat if you could remember. Ok back to my wardrobe issue, I just bought a pair of soft and comfy jeans when in fact I would’ve bought the more appropriate slacks to wear. ha-ha. I know it’s crazy, but you see Aidan, I don’t want to attend that ceremony. So, tell me if I’m bad or not. I’m planning to do something else and dress up inappropriately, then perhaps they would be calling to ask where I am, then I would tell them I completely forgot and then they would be aware that I am doing something else. Upon knowing so, they wouldn’t be able to force me to join them. And if they do, upon seeing me and my get-up, they would likely suggest for me to change, but since there isn’t much time, they would agree to let me go. What do you think? Brilliant idea isn’t it? I know it’s mean, evil and immature Aidan, but what other choice have I got left? Tell me.

H2O Fueled

water, water, and more water! I’m talking about my increased water intake lately due to my side has been aching like hell again. Why do pain seems to love me Aidan? Why?
I just woke up, I dreamt that I was drowning. Perhaps it’s the side effects of drinking too much water. What do you think?
Hopefully, this throbbing pain would go away soon, otherwise I would be staying inside this mundane asylum of mine until I am fit to go out and face face the world again.

Yo Aidan! It’s been a great day today! I feel awesome, I went to the beach, strolled with TypeO and swam until I got too tired to swim and just laid down on the sand watching the sea slowly swallow the sun. I think I just saw that scene in an infomercial a few days back. I never really planned to go to the beach at all, while driving home from the mall, TypeO and I were driving along SRP, and we were looking at the view of the sea. I told TypeO to put-down the top of Vette so we could feel the rush of wind on our faces, which turned out to be a good idea (laughs). We then started talking about the beach and all and ended up doing u-turn. Good thing a mall was on the way that we were able to grab a few swimming clothes and off we went towards Shang. We were even thinking of staying overnight to be able to watch the sunrise the next day but I realized I had so many deadlines. Next time i’m bringing you and Iron along so we could work on the deadlines and still have fun on the beach. What do you think?

black and white with shades of grey

Howdy Aidan! It’s been a couple of days since I last blogged. Well, I’ve been trying to take care of my other blogs as well, but that’s not supposed to make you feel jealous because you know you’re pretty special. I’ve just been working on deadlines, and so far so good. At least now here I am free again, free to blab and rant, etc. etc. But the thing is, I don’t really have anything in mind. Oh well, Do you remember that person whom I’ve met through b-cat? We talk more often now. Ok, let’s give this person a name, how about Panda? I think that’d best describe this person, since the personality that this someone possess resembles that of the color black and white. Bold yet pure and kind, warm and cute. No pretentions, just plain black and white yet beautiful. How’s that? I guess Panda wouldn’t like the name but I doubt it that the person concerned would even know or bother to read this. Panda also reminds me of a similar experience that we had, like going to China and all others. So let it be Panda!
Panda and I did nothing but talk about funny things and even when they’re not funny I still end up laughing, how’s that? So Aidan, what do you think? Are we on the verge of mental breakdown or what? Hopefully not, since I’d like to have Panda as a friend even in person. I think that’d be totally great.

Good morning Aidan! How do you find your name so far? (laughs) Okay, so I’m starting to sound a little insane here, but I feel more comfortable now having to treat you like a friend, my alter ego or a brother perhaps. Don’t you think so? I think that good thing about you is that you don’t answer back, yet you leave me thinking and you give me this drive to find the answers to my questions. If not all, at least all those that I could come up or formulate possible answers with.
What’s new? I’ve got a few new songs on my play list, Good thing Jay is quite resourceful when I am unable to find those songs that I like. to name a few, there’s the old song called you take my breath away. TypeO played it while we were heading home, and I just thought that I would want to have it as well, I didn’t bother asking TypeO for the file, he was looking a bit serious today. Another song would be Better Man, and On and On.

Hello World, Hello Aidan!

Blogs have domain names but that’s just it, I think I’m giving my blog a personal name aside from it’s general domain name. I want my blog to be like someone I could talk to and confide with. So, what name should it be? I haven’t thought of that yet. Eventually, I would have the perfect name for it. Perhaps something that would remind me of happy thoughts, of good memories, of something or someone that’d make me smile. Hopefully at the end of this post I would be able to come up with a name, If not, probably on my next post.
So what have I been doing lately? Nothing much really, like right now, I am writing this post from the hospital. Yeah, you read it right! I’m at the hospital again for same old reasons (weak smile), but I’m okay now, in fact I’ll be getting out here before lunch so I’m just preparing my stuff and settling my bills. This hospital is actually the same hospital where my mom’s been going back and forth to have check-ups prior to having me. It’s the same hospital where she confirmed that she was pregnant with me, same hospital where my doctor’s at, the doctor who took care of my mom and monitored her complex pregnancy, the same hospital where I was born, first hospitalized, etc etc. I couldn’t seem to count the number of times I’ve had complex and normal check-ups here. But right now, the only thing I know is I hate every time I had top come back here. I don’t wanna keep coming here at all.
Okay, back to the blog’s name I guess I’ll put one on the list of choices I’ll have to choose from, and the very first choice would be Aidan. Why? I dunno. It just came up to me. Would it be a bad choice for a blog’s name?

finding emo

I thought of you as always, but today was different. I am more at peace with nothing but myself. I am not sure what’s going to happen next, I am just so freakin tired of all the arguments. I think what we have now is better than not having anything at all.
I’ve given you the best years of my life, I got stucked in the memory of us and everything that we shared together and still longing for it. I know it isn’t just me, I know both of us has been trying to hang on to all the things we treasured. I held on to everything that’s you with my dear life, and I know that you’ve done the same, but so many things happened already and perhaps it’s about time we take a rest first. No, I am not trying to say goodbye like what you’re thinking, I just simple want us to find ourselves again. That way, It wouldn’t be so hard for us to find each other again.
At least now, I have a diversion which is writing. I know I never was and never will be a good writer but I could always write with my heart. I guess it’s time I pour out all these boxed emotions that I’ve locked up inside me. I think it’s time to gather every single memory I possibly could, and remember the time, good and bad, not to relive them and commit the same mistakes along the way, but try to find every lesson I could to make things better tomorrow.

just a little disclaimer:

Before I start doing this blog, I would just like to make this disclaimer post. All throughout the blog I will be using pre-assigned aliases to all the people and characters that will be mentioned in my post to keep their identities protected. I am doing this in the request of some people whose names would rather not be mentioned anywhere in this blog, yet agreed to be given aliases to avoid using blanks instead of names. So, be aware that if ever any name is similar to a person you know or that of your own, that name would simply be someone else that has something to do with my life or people that I interact with. If names will be mentioned, there will be simple description of that character. For comments don’t hesitate to send e-mails but no spamming please. Thank You and welcome to my new home.